House’s dumb drug and drunkness
In an episode on House, a genius patient suffers from his own brilliance. He feels alone in the universe and uses a dumb drug to make it all simpler. He lowers his intellect and erodes his mind with psychedelics for his own serenity. It is an escape from the horror of reality. Subconsciously in a tranquil daze away from the harsh daily struggles. Chronic pain unmedicated needs a dumb drug that being alcohol.
Persistent pain needs alleviation. Alcohol voids the pain numbing the treachery into calm peace. A way to avoid the continuous struggles. A world away from pain. A brief salvation. An imperfect solution. With enough movement, the pain will break through the subconscious detachment. The mind either passes out in defilement or contains the pain as it seeps through the protected mind. Alcohol shuts off the lights. The pain recievers cannot harm the mind. The power has been nullified. The mind is on its backup generator. Running on autopilot, it acts with rational thinking. No pain but no realisation. Liberated from the chaos, shackles removed from his tightened wrists. A way out even if at the expense of the mind and body. A toxin shot straight to the system with an aspiring hope.
Alcohol has adverse affects. There is a strong measure of unknown. Its affect is incalculable. Its power imminent. The dumb drug is a powerful overhaul that places the mind in the backseat to instinctive action. Memory is foggy and less relatable to understanding the self. An inner enthusiasm breaches forth to take control of one’s actions. Alcohol pushes the rational conscious to bed. Keeping the body awake with the brain turned off. There is less thinking and more doing. Caught up in the moment and acting without any care. All fear and limitations released from their bounded nature. Drunk is a state of freedom inconsequentially moving forward. Comforted by the liberated scenery of joyous stardom. Gradually progressing to tranquility. Slowly acknowledging the pain's numbness. Untethered by its immaculate overhaul. Alcohol leads the blind. A way to the nothingness of recognition.
While there is a level of no return, there is a middle ground. A goal of euphoria designated. This is not a college party scene to get so drunk for fun, this a calculated effort. An intentioned action for maximum result. Not waiting for a party to let loose. A drink administered on a Tuesday afternoon. Treating it as a medication. If Vicodin will not do the trick then an alternative is necessary. Pain is not some annoyance it is deconstructing. Pushing through temporarily pain during a workout does not compare to the perpetual chronic ailment. At the gym one knows that he can push because afterwards the pain will subside with some stretching, water and a nice shower. For chronic pain it is an endless cycle from waking up to sleep (even during sleep). Medication must treat this pain that never ends. The first week is simple but years in depresses and looks to soothe the pain.
Finding distractions to void feeling pain is not simple. Gluing eyes to the screen for a Netflix episode only goes so far. Distractions are momentarily. There is some relief but not enough. It is also a gamble. Television may not work. Distractions are not equal. One day it might work the next day it may not. Stressed over failure to secure an outlet must take a step deeper. Netflix or reading a book are cognitive shifts. The pained individual is refocusing his mind away from his pain to the show. His mind concentrates away but the motion picture will end rejuvenating the pain's power. If it is a boring show or cognitively lose interest, the pain will resurge. Alcohol overtakes the mind. The mind is put to rest. Flooded with brainwashing overhaul. The mind is wounded and has little control to focus on the pain. The receivers are ineffective tainted with liquid mucus. With sudden movements the mind tries to communicate with injured areas but is unsuccessful.
Moving around freely for the first time in a while. He isn’t at one hundred percent but the euphoria outwits the depression. The body numb joyfully skips in the air with no consequence. A new worldview is opened to him. He is no longer under the curse of his mind. His pain is pinned, washed out by the alcohol. Adrenaline courses through his veins inspiring extreme behaviour. Tied down by his mind for so long. He is liberated to act as he wishes. The limitations are voided. His endorphins have capitalised on the mind chaining the trajectory of his movements and thoughts. He becomes obsessed with enjoying the temporarily freedom before he comes down. He does not consider the danger nor the inevitable end to his drunken state. He is lost in the bliss of alcoholic peace. He will act irregularly. Doing what he’s only wished of. Now that the chains have been released he will run and party. Overcompensate for his loss.
Yet he is not oblivious to the negatives. Besides alcohol’s inherent dangers he also knows the result of this euphoria. His overcompensation will bite him in the ass at the end. When he comes down he will be tortured ever more. The recovered receivers are bloodied with wrathful insolence. The injured body has moved too much. The receivers are raging. They attack twice as hard. His mind lectures him, dumb move moron. He trades temporary euphoria for blissful numbness. He knows how it’s going to end but his struggle compels him to act “impulsively”. Alcohol is an immediate solution for eternal suffering. It is a double-edged sword. It will provide the bliss but the consequences thereafter are gruesome. After the mind regains control it asserts its will with alarming fury. Sending double the messages. A tragic moment that plagues his existence. Suffer without any peace or risk it for twice the pain. It is not an easy answer. Pain does not go away. It is also not fun feeling the pain. It is similar to being whipped. Unsure the magnitude and how many lashes.
Euphoria and numbness supply freedom to provoke the body. Alcohol can alter the mind’s chemistry for a split second but it cannot revive the dead. Alcohol cannot miraculously mobilise the cripple. It cannot rejuvenate that which does not work. It can only remove the distasteful feeling plaguing each step. Vibrating in horror as his mind cries tortured. A crippled body weak in the knees may experience a swift reawakening in its euphoric majesty but will swiftly disappear. Pain may not be relevant but his body will not recover. Enjoying a friend’s wedding jealous of his friends dancing while he is sitting alone with a drink in hand to wash the depression away. He hits that euphoria and advances to join his friends. After a few moments it is clear that his body cannot handle his movements. His mind is swamping him with alarming calls but he has disconnected. All sent to voicemail. His body begins failing falling over. He recognises this and his mind reconnects screaming at him. He then drinks more to disconnect once again.
In time, alcohol becomes a desired salvation. It is incredibly faltering in aiding the individual. It puts life on temporary hold. Chronic strugglers are trying to live their lives. Distractions especially alcohol that puts one out of commission is unhelpful for an employee or father. Either way, sidelining himself with alcohol prevents him from living his life and aware of his actions. Relying on it will only be the devil’s curse. Tired of the pain one afternoon and pouring whisky into a glass drinking passionately. The more drunk the less active in work and the quicker to sleep. Waking up groggy with the stars lighting up the night sky realising wasted a full day. The pain surges just as he puts is head to the pillow to sleep. Once his mind is in the front seat it punishes him severely. Off alcohol his mind monitors him increasing the pain for stepping out of line. With alcohol he imprisons his mind. His mind recovering its necessary role deals the damage to enforce the law. Follow the pain. He stubbornly gnarls since he cannot pinpoint his pain. He acts out because he does not have a solution and the pain is a robotic response that beats him for his incompetence.